Waiting for my life to start!

I love that line for the movie "My Big Fat Greek Wedding" She says "Here I am 30 and waiting for my life to start" It seems like my whole life I have been waiting for my life to start! I am always doing something for someone else or I can't do anything real for me because I have to do for someone else. That is the story of my life! People always get mad at me because I can't want anything I just have to be there for whatever they want. I don't mind helping people.....I have been told that I am a healer and I know it's true....its just where does a healer go when they need healing??? So far I have been alone my whole life. Other than God and a few people here and there I have never had anyone there for me. Sometime you get use to it.... sometimes its really bad because I have no where to run to. I'm not really the type of person that would share my feelings with someone. I guess that is because growing up I have never had anyone there that would listen or support me. I did have my dad sometimes, but not a lot. My mother was never a loving mother although she will tell you she was. My sister is a lot like my mother. My brother was there, but he it not someone that I would share stuff with either. When I would tell my mom or sister..... anything they would just yell at me at tell me whatever I was feeling or thinking it was stupid. I learn at a very early age that it was just...... me myself and I. That worked than but it doesn't work now and I'm not going to let it be all I ever have! That is in the past!!! Look out world! My time is coming!!